I really wonder how you feel on these nights so alone

“wishing hoping believing”

26 July 2011 || 19:34

PassionateYou are in touch with your emotions, and sometimes you react before you think. The good news: you don't tamp down your feelings. The bad news: you sometimes say or do things that you later wish you could take back.
You do not live your life on an even keel; you do not go for long periods without experiencing some mood swings.

Scrupulous
You are an honest, fair person. You don't lie or cheat to get ahead. You treat others with respect and hope for the same in return.
You do not feel that you are above the rules that everyone else follows; you are definitely not willing to do whatever it takes to get ahead.

Calm
You rarely become irritated, generally accept people as they are, take things as they come, and feel relaxed in most situations.
You do not let a minor annoyance escalate to a confrontation. You don't regularly snap at those around you or fly off the handle with little provocation.

AestheticYou appreciate art, beauty, and design; you know that they are not superficial but absolutely crucial to living the good life. You have good taste, and you're proud of it. Those with a high score on the "aesthetic" trait are often employed in literary or artistic professions, enjoy domestic activities — doing things around the house — and are enthusiastic about the arts, reading, and travel.
You don't think it's pretentious to be moved by art and beauty. You're not one of those who believe it doesn't matter what something looks like as long as it does its job.

Laid Back
You prefer to do your own thing, in your own way, rather than attempt to force your will, or your ego, on a group. You're happy working on your own, taking your sweet time, and focusing on the job at hand.
You're not pushy. You're not interested in imposing your will on others, taking charge of every situation, being the first to raise your hand in class, or insisting on being the winner of every argument.

Upbeat
You enjoy being around others and others enjoy being around you. You have a "live and let live" attitude; because you know that no one's perfect, you are forgiving and happy to give the benefit of the doubt.
You don't feel the need to be controversial or express contrary opinions all the time. You see no reason to go around rubbing people the wrong way.

Introspective
You like your own company; you're a very interesting person. Tracking your own mental processes, knowing what you're thinking and why you do what you do, is important to you. Often, what's going on in your mind is more compelling than what's going on outside. For the most part, those with a high score on the "introspective" trait enjoy reading, taking long walks, learning new things, and other solitary activities.
You are not someone who is constantly looking to be among a group of friends; you never feel bored when you are by yourself.

Sympathetic
You have a knack for knowing what's going on in the hearts and minds of those around you, without their having to tell you explicitly. People tend to turn to you with their problems because they know you care, and that you will likely offer good advice and a helping hand.
You do not feel that people with sad stories are just looking for attention, or have brought their problems upon themselves.

Giving
You enjoy helping others, lending a hand, providing emotional or material sustenance. You don't see taking care of others as an imposition but as a vital and important part of your life.
You're not the kind of person who runs out of patience for people in need, nor do you feel that treating people with kindness is bad because it insulates them from the harsh realities of life.

Original
You are constantly coming up with new ideas. For you, the world as it exists is just a jumping-off place; what's going on inside your mind is often more interesting than what's going on outside.
You don't feel that the road to success is to be a realist and stick to the program; you never stop yourself from coming up with new ideas or telling the world what you're thinking about.

psychcentral.com/personality-patterns/

i realise how bad i am being a student, a friend, a person.

25 July 2011 || 23:45

haven been doing much recently except watching videos and shows!HAHAH.
totally anti social:X

and soooo~
i finished the 1st season of HIMYM!:D

okay. its quite a funny show. recommended!haha.

BUT.i still think running man is funnier.highly recommended!HAHA.

and i was trying to continue with gossip girl season 3 where i stopped like dunno how long ago~
but i realised i totally forgotten the story:X
so i went back to watch the season one of gossip girl again!HAHA.
and i realise how different was blair in season 1 and 3!:O

more and more stuff for me to watch! while holidays is ending in like 2 weeks time:(
haii.
just hope that the coming year can be as good as or even better den the last sem!
in terms of grade and also the motivation to study!

hope everyone is feeling better during this durian season!hahah

i will work hard for my final year.
yes i will
yes i will
yes i will:)
and hope everyone will too.

unprepared.

24 July 2011 || 15:34

i hate choosing modules.it always give me headache:(

one last year to go.
and that will be the end of my entire sch life.
what i have been working hard and studying for.
just to graduate.

and a whole new world will be waiting for me.
i am scared.

thankful.

20 July 2011 || 02:23

it had been a busy day.hahah

haven had a birthday party in a long long time.
and it just feel so different.

i dun like the feeling of being the centre of attention.and maybe thats why i have been hesitating on having a party.
but at the same time it makes me feel loved:)

the party was kind of hectic i feel.HAHA.
maybe mainly because i have no idea what to do.
but so thankful ppl arnd me are helping me to take care of stuff while i am still confused abt what to do:X

memories:
- i was late for the party.
-my hairstyle din survive thru the party
- 3 guys smell my feet. i feel bad for them!hahah:X
- i danced in front of so many ppl.
- helium balloons.
- i cried twice. for no reason.hahaha
- many more.

i wasnt expecting a speech.so i blank out when i am asked for one.hahaha.
esp when i am not a person that can speak well.hahaha.

okay.maybe i shld write one here:)

i am really thankful to all of you that make their way down for my party, despite being a weekday and at quite a ulu place. sad that i wasnt able to talk more to each and everyone of you.i am just like hopping arnd:X but great to see ppl having fun!:) okay i am not a person that can say words of affection. in the 21 years, i am grateful that i have been blessed with many kind and awesome people arnd me.i really love all the people i know. thankyou for being part of my life.

yay:)

okay there's so many things i want to do. but i shld just sleep first.haha.
open the presents!
arrange the guest book!
read and re-read the msges and cards!
and maybe just stare and smile:)

01 July 2011 || 23:44

我好像不够了解自己
自己想要什么
喜欢什么都不清楚

不是不喜欢

只是不知道喜不喜欢